I used to punish myself for having dark days. I would feel like I needed to do more to be positive or happy. But when I realized that it is perfectly normal to travel through the darkness, I truly befriended myself and began to look at those dark days with respect and love.
Thank you Thank You Thank You
I repeat to myself
To drown out the sounds that try to pull me down
Some days it's easy to see
The light in me
Some days it's dark and spikey
And hard to see
I know I have a choice
But why is it so hard
To choose the light some days
But maybe...
Does the dark need it's time too?
Is it possible to be light all the time?
No, I don't think so
Just like the days and nights
And the seasons
I too have cycles
I too have my internal days and nights
When I sit with my darkness
I feel such a power
She does scare me a little
She doesn't like to be pushed away
She feels my fear and I think that makes her sad
When I sit with her I see and feel her power
Sure maybe it feels like anger
Sure maybe it feels like sadness
But I discovered something new about this darkness
It's creative
It has a creative power tenfold
So I sit and I paint
I pour the darkness out of me and onto the page
What happens is the most beautiful marriage of energies
I feel the dark and the light together dancing
Like a fire burning bright in the night sky
I no longer feel it is a fight for the light but rather a dance with the dark
I take her by the hand and dance the wild darkness into the light